Burning pain[[part two]]
I bit my lip, wanting to keep my tears from streaming down my face again. My eyes were tired, tired from crying over what I knew I would never have again, my sweet caring michael again, but I knew my love for him was forever and eternal. My sight was becoming blurry and the lump was becoming thicker and bulkier, making it hard to swallow.
I looked out of the window and immediatly felt guilty and had to look away. How could I be gazing out into the beautiful scenery when Michael would never be here to see anything again? I felt guilty watching the stunning blooming flowers and thick green leaves falling from the trees. I couldn’t help but think that Michael would never have a chance to see any of this, I thought of what he would feel like if he was with me there, stareing out into the world. I though of Michaels light brown sleeping eyes and it was unbearable to think that no beauty would ever enter his eyes again. I though of how much Michael used to love the start of spring. He always picked flowers for me on the first day of spring, bringing his love and warmth along to my doorstep. I remember smelling the sweet scent of fresh picked flowers early in the morning. They were always pink roses, gorgeous beautiful pink roses. I couldn’t believe how sweet he was the first time he brought them to me, he knew those were my favorite flowers and he never let himself forget it. Those memories were so fresh and vivid that I could smell the sweet fragrance of the beautiful roses and could almost feel the soft moist petals.
-Michael was going to bring them to you tomorow.-I heard michaels mom say from the front seat. I turned and saw a dozen light pink roses perfectly tied together with a think creamy white ribbon. I reached over and lightly touched the soft pink petals. I picked them up and slowly brought them to my face. I slowly breathed in the wonderful sweet scent, feeling warm wet tears roll down my face. I would keep these roses forever. These were the last first of spring roses that I would ever get from him. My heart felt warmer and warmer as I thought how thoughtful he was when I saw he had perfectly cut off the thorns. But soon all this feeling came crashing down on me when I relized that Michael never lived to see the pleased emotion planted on my face.
-He always looked forward to the first day of spring because of you, he really truely loved you Ivanna, and he would have wanted you to know that. I hugged the roses to my chest, sniffing in the deep scent, letting it overcome me. I closed my eyes and felt tired and exahusted. I felt my head tilt to the side and I let my mind clear of everything that happened in the last 6 hours.
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I woke up, I had no idea where I was or what time it was. I remembered being in a car, but I couldnt feel the rough road under the car and I felt a light breeze on my face that i knew wasn’t there before. I opened my eyes cautiously. The second I saw what was in front of me, my stomach felt nervous and I had butterflies fluttering about in it. My heart started beating faster, my body didn’t think to distinguish what was real and what was fake. My brain finally caught up to my body and I could not believe what I was seeing
Filed by two26 at April 23rd, 2008 under Uncategorized
